I have been waiting by the phone for pretty much 3 days waiting for a phone call letting me know some hopefully good news. It’s been hard, because each minute that goes by without the call, is one more minute I worry. I feel like a teenager again, waiting for that cute guy to call! Except this is about a job!
I never want to live through the last 6 months like these again, although there’ve been a lot of nice things too. The weather has been awesome, and family has been generous and helpful. Chris and I are solid, and my best friend and I haven’t been any closer since we’ve been in high school. Plus, I don’t think I’ve been in better physical shape since my early 20′s.
I cried so hard today, that I dry-retched for about a minute. What if they’ve changed their minds? What if they don’t call? OMG. The worry is wrapped around me like a burrito blanket. I’ve done everything I can to make this happen. My best efforts are pretty impressive – what else can I have done?
Faith is the only answer today. There’s nothing more I can do but wait. I’ll go out and do my daily exercise, eat some rice for lunch, and clean the apartment. If they call with good news today, I’ll be the happiest woman on the planet – and if they don’t – I’ll just have to keep on going and doing my best.
I know we’ve all been in this situation – like we’re waiting for the pot to boil when we’re super hungry, and it seems like it’s taking forever – when in fact, it’s taking just the right amount of time.
My prayers aren’t just for me though – actually not very many of them are. They’re for my sweetheart, and my cats – for my brother, and my mother, and my best friend. For Chris’s Mom and their family. And maybe, some day, for my adopted dad and his beautiful wife. I need to show them all that I am bigger than my circumstances, and that I can succeed – and help them all at the same time! I want to bring everyone up with me!
I’ve certainly put in the ground work!
This probably all sounds pretty crazy, but I’m just very stressed out right now. It seems like I’ve been waiting for good news for so long. It seems like it’s been way too long. Please call. Please call. Please call.
I’m ready, and I promise – I’m going to be great!