I have something I do every New Year’s. I take stock of the good and the bad of the year, the next day I take stock of where I am and where I want to be.
The good: my sweetie and I are still together, and are very happy together, and doing amazingly well, we’ve passed through many hardships and are a good support for each other. My brother and I seem to have hit a new point in our relationship where we treat each other with respect (generally speaking). Our little family got bigger with two new kitties, Silly/Priscilla (Mama kitty) and Cookie (kitten). Our house is everything I’ve ever wanted in a house, and my sweetie’s family are really amazing, really good people. I’ve been very blessed this year. I’ve made new friends that, although we only talk online, mean a lot to me, which has been extremely wonderful too. Writing this blog has been really good too – it’s given me a way to express my thoughts through writing, and hopefully may have helped some people along the way.
The bad: Dealing with depression/anxiety again when I haven’t had to in a long time. Struggling with finances, moving to a totally new place and being overwhelmed by it all, the lack of stability, stress. My Uncle in the hospital and the guilt I feel. Finally losing contact with most of my old friends from Michigan has been really hard as well.
It feels like it’s been an exceptionally hard year, but in reality there have been much worse. I will be glad for 2009 to end and 2010 to begin – a new decade, a new hope, a future unwritten. Tonight is the time to saying goodbye to the old. Goodbye 2009 – it’s been interesting.
Wishing the best for all of you in this new year!
All best,
Rose
